I have changed, really changed. Everyone around me had changed too, no matter small or big. I realized that just within one month, a sense of competition built up in me agaisnt some one. I am no longer the Victor that is willing to help out in every oppurtunity that I could. I am no longer the Victor that is generous and willing to teach every one everything I know. I had changed.
I am even afraid of myself now. Reflecting back at what I my feeling was just now, really scare me, I do not want some one to learn my photoshop techniques, because I love having this advantage. Scary. The selfish side of me is being displayed in myself. I am ashamed of it.
I remembered Taiboon talking about council politics. Is it true, is it the thing that is stirring within me? I hope not, and i think not.
I am angry. An angry person.
Although I am ashamed at my feelings just now. I must say something that I am not ashamed of.
That is. I am a person with a fairly big ego. I am egoistic. So what?
Matthew Lim, my committee member. He produced sub-standard logos, and he claimed that it was me who ruined it. Come on matthew, my new logos are done WITHOUT sketch, if it could do better than YOUR logos. What does it show? I mean. The fault did not really rely on me alone. You said you are going to ask jerrold to color ur logo for you, hey what is the meaning of this ? What the hell. I was joking about me being biase. I put EQUAl, I repeat EQUAL effort into digitising YOUR SO-CALLED WELL DONE SKETCH. Argh.
He said that my skills is only 1/3 of Jerrolds flash skill. What the fuck have you got any idea where my photoshop skills stand. Who the fuck are you to tell me that My photoshop skills are 1/3 of Jerrolds, come on. You are not me, I am myself, My skills are not thatBAD. Listen here, MAtthew, I am very displeased with all your comments, and your inability to come out with good logos. I am unhappy. Infuriated. Angry.
But I am an impartial person, I will not take it on you too hardly, I will still do your logo. I go for quality NOT quantity.